Total Surrender

God is opening my spiritual eyes and ears. I woke up at 1 am praying in the Spirit. Earlier today I was listening to the song “You won’t relent until You have it all, my heart is yours,” and those words continued to speak to me. What things does God not have of mine? In talking with God this morning some things became clear. Why is it so important to give everything to Him? We cannot experience true worship unless He has it all. We cannot walk in His love and His power unless we are emptied and filled. We cannot operate in power unless our will is His will.
So God began to expose some areas where I was not totally surrendered. I agreed. Then He asked me to get on my knees before Him. I reminded Him it was early, cold, and my husband might wake up and see me. I was quiet warm and cozy. He made it clear that if I could not obey Him enough to get out of the bed and fall on my knees before Him at a moment’s notice with inconvenience I would not be able to move any further on this journey.
So I wrestled with His prompting for at least 10 minutes. I heard the scripture “The gifts and callings of God are without repentance.” He told me my spirit and will must be broken in order to receive His will. He had the power to call an angel to pull me out of bed. I knew that would probably happen next, so I got down on my knees by my snoring dog. I made sure to give him a nudge and disgruntled look. After all he was so warm and snugly. There were uno cards and a pick up sticks word game I had to maneuver through.
Once on my knees I suddenly had a full bladder. I was thirsty. I asked “is this necessary?” I was spiritually thirsty more than physically thirsty. I know from experience He does not let up until His will is done. So I prayed and waited. I turned to 1 Corinthians 4. Paul is warning the church that he is coming to check up on them. He is going through all kinds of challenges. He calls out Timothy to go to the churches. I read verse 3 first. I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. Then I went back and read the entire chapter. Verse 1 says they were entrusted with the secrets of God and those given this level of trust must prove themselves faithful. We do not have authority to judge, only Christ has the authority. When you are operating in this realm it is easy to be puffed up because not everyone is given this level of knowledge. It is given for a specific purpose. It may take a lot of praying in secret and there will be many who will unknowingly tear you down. Our prayers and work go beyond the natural realm and we may never understand. Our purpose is to fulfill the callings God puts on our heart and obey swiftly. Arrogance has no place in this realm. The kingdom of God is not of talk but it is of power. Basically, we have a choice to be gently led or God will have to use who He wills to put us in our place. Glad we got that straightened out early! There are many voices out there and we have to be tuned into His voice and the only way to hear His voice clearly is to stay in total surrender.
I have been reviewing some of my blog entries. God is so faithful and amazing! I am preparing to go on a mission trip to Zimbabwe, Africa. Yes, God is finally moving in this direction! This has been my heart for so long and He is already teaching me so much! I will have to do an entry on nothing but the mission trip.

I close today with the awesome worship song that fueled my thoughts today http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bXR65YfWehI&feature=related